LaraJames

I don't know when I discovered that words could caress more than hands. I guess I always knew. I always loved to speak in whispers, to throw phrases with two edges and to observe —from my trench of apparent innocence— how someone shuddered without fully understanding why.. I have a very particular way of enjoying conversations. I'm not interested in the obvious, what is said without mystery. I am fascinated by the art of insinuating, of slipping an idea wrapped in velvet, of leaving you wondering if what you heard was real. or just your imagination overflowing. —¿Do you like me to tell you like that, or do you prefer me to show you? —I usually ask in a soft voice, as if the question was completely innocent. Though I don't pretend to be.

I like that moment when someone doesn't know if they should laugh, blush or follow my game. That brief awkward pause that reveals more than any answer. That's where I find pleasure: in the unsaid. In the suggested. And yes. I play with my gaze. Sometimes they say I have “good girl eyes”, and I smile. I let them believe it. But if they knew what goes on behind this serene smile. I'm not explicit, I don't need it. I prefer that soft tension that grows in the air when you understand that every word can have a double bottom. I'm not gonna make it easy for you. I'm gonna invite you into my world, but you'll have to earn the access.

Because I don't seduce in the face. I provoke, slowly, with the tip of the words. I like that you feel that you are walking on a narrow edge, that any sentence of mine can destabilize you. and you can't help wanting more. Innocent? Only when I want. Dangerous? Maybe, if you don't know how to play. Honestly? Always. But don’t get confused: not everything I say means what you think. Sometimes it's just a game. Other times. not so much.

Sometimes I find myself in a fascinating balance: I am delicate and elegant, like a soft caress that rests in the air, but at the same time I keep in me a wild and daring force that invites me to break schemes.. I am not afraid of that duality; on the contrary, I embrace it with pride, because it reminds me that I can be many versions of myself without losing my essence.. I like to go out alone, give me moments that are only mine. Walking around the city, getting lost in an unknown cafe, attending an exhibition or just walking aimlessly connects me with parts of me that sometimes the noise of the world does not let me hear.. In these little adventures I find the opportunity to observe myself from within, to discover new nuances in my thoughts, in my emotions, in my desires.. It is in those moments of loneliness accompanied by my own presence where I know myself best: sometimes I am that woman who enjoys a wine calmly, with an attentive and serene gaze; and other times, I am the one who decides to take a risk, live with intensity, laugh loudly and dance as if the night belonged to me..